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Transfer

First this is not my embie, its beautiful though!

I’m tierd and sore but I did have transfer today and that I am grateful for!! I have little Nemo on board and I am sorry little one for all the swelling and yukkiness in there. For the next couple of weeks you will find me talking to you through this blog as its yours.

Now I don’t want to sound ungrateful with some of the things I am going to say in here.
We arrived today at 8.40 for transfer this morning, I was so uncomfortable with the drive upto Melbourne but I know a lot was anxiety too, DH kept talking to me but he knew I was nervous, what happened if they wouldn’t do transfer!!
My RE called me into the room and asked how I was, I think he could see my tummy was sticking out more lol but I told him, I was sore but that was about it. He said to me do you want to transfer 2 and I asked him what he thought and honestly, so he told me ……… ONE and as much as I wanted two I knew I had to trust him. He told me my risks of two including twins and my chance of getting very sick with them, I also know that since we lost Chloe at 16w due to my waters breaking twins is just not good for us.
I laid there while we saw our little one on the screen, you were there all 4 cells of you and although deep down I wanted you bro or sis to keep you company whole you were in there I knew I couldn’t. You were put inside me for me to keep you all warm and protect you.

On the way home I put a fertility crystal on my tummy and just hoped and prayed to you Angel sister that she was watching over us right now.
I was on a downer on the way home, I really wanted two transferred as all the other fresh that I have fallen pregnant on have always had two transferred but I know what I had to do and I feel guilty for this cause I should be satisfied with the 18 embryo’s I got as I know women would kill for that. My problem is that I don’t respond to FET’s and even my RE says I don’t, so with these frostie bubs sitting there I really feel that when we use them my RE needs to look at something different or I have to find someone different, I have had 4 with no luck and bleeding when I am on tablets not to bleed and on the same days too.

So today I have been on the couch, rubbing you and wishing for you to hang on and grow!

Very uncomfortable night last night, was so sore but I found if I just kept swapping sides instead of lying on my back it would ease, not to mention the drugs lol.The nurse rung me today and I go in for transfer tomorrow at 8.40am and with any luck this time tomorrow I should have to little ones snuggling in.
Have been so worried and scared about hyper stimulating and the thought of not making it to transfer has terrified me to no end. Today I had a dizzy spell so I went straight to bed and stayed there all day, then when Nath bought home chinese for dinner I got up and bang there was that dizziness again but I am tipping its probably because I only had toast at 10.30 in the morning and nothing else but water and Gatorade, plus lying down all day.

I want to thank everyone for all your support its been so over whelming and I luv’s ya all!!

EPU Results

We'll I'm back from EPU and I have to say I am a little more shocked than before lol. I ended up with 35 eggs!!!

As you can understand I am sore, oh but I loved the drugs lol! My Dr ended up ordering 2 bags of fluid and my hubby said that when I went under he said omg where to start and I just can't work your wifes response to drugs out , of course I'm sure DH would of had a comment to that. I woke up pretty quickly and felt ok except for the sore left side and when they were looking at the fluids they were mumbling whether I should have another and piped up and said yes pls lol, they just both started laughing at me.

So they did the hyper tests on me and they are actually surprised on how well I was feeling, but as they said it can hit at anytime. The plan if all goes ok will be transfer of 2 embies on Wed, I have to ring the Royal Womens tomorrow for transfer time and report on my hyper then go in on Wed and he will make the call on how well or not well I am doing. He said he will not risk anything just for the sake of it.

So that's me and I'm drugging up and off to bed!

Tierd and scared

Well retrieval is tomorrow and I can’t wait to get these things out, today as my nurse promised would be the worse day before retrieval and then that’s a whole different type of pain lol.

I am so scared about the next couple of days and over stimming, I really need to get to a fresh transfer, they are the only way I have been able to conceive and as my RE has said FET’s just don’t work on me you can understand why.

So wish me luck girls……..7.30 am Tomorrow!!

Trigger

I did my own trigger shot tonight and I was scared stiff lol to the point I felt sick lol, but I numbed the old tum with some ice and did it!! Now I am worried that hyerstim is going to hit me and guess I will until the whole thing is over. I go for egg retrieval on Monday at 7.30am and I can feel the pain of it already, although I have to admit the sleep is the best bit.

I just don’t know how I will cope if I am told that its to dangerous to transfer knowing that a fresh transfer is the only thing that has ever worked for us. My nurse told me not to be brave and do the right thing and I know I have to listen to her as it’s my health here and I don’t want to end up in hospital. My RE gave me a drip last time when they collected 29 eggs so I will be tipping I will get it again.

Why do we have to go through this, why can I just not have one simple easy cycle…..or isn’t there such a thing lol!!

Follie scan

Well I had my scan this morning and I am absolutely dumb founded as is the
nurses and my RE, the result .........54 follicles!!! WTF and where the
hell did they come from. When one of the Dr's were doing the scan when she
said 24 follies I thought "oh good one" but then read that was just my right
ovary!! I am only on 187.5 and even when on 225 I only got 30 and as the
nurse said to me we don't know how to find a happy medium with you, you only
had 16 collected from the last stim and that was the same dose, the one
before that was 225 with 29 collected and my first was 150 with not much as
all.

Well we sat down and talked about hyperstimulating and the dangers and then
was told that we probably wont go for transfer as its too risky, well Sharon
was not happy and either was DH as we do not respond to FET's I mean we have
don't 4 of them and not a dam thing but with fresh 1 pg, 1 partial
attachment. Then discussed canceling the cycle. My nurse said she would
see if my RE was out of surgery and have a talk, well when she left the room
I must of started stressing myself and nearly passed out, Nath grabbed me
and pulled me to the bed. When the nurse came back she was saying did I
worry you that much lol but I was fine a minute later.

If all is ok after EPU it looks like they will only transfer one instead of
two, I am to ring my nurse tomorrow and Melb IVF sat and sun then go for EPU
on Monday. Then inbetween if all is not well I am to go straight to hosp.
So I have stocked up on the Gatorade, been given today off work and have to
take it easy. So if anyone else has some advise to get me to Monday I
would much appriciate it!!

Sore, tierd and scared!!

OMG Finally & new blog

OMG after nearly 2 weeks this bloody thing has let me back in to post. I so miss you all , but letting you know I have moved blogs to http://shazld.wordpress.com/ so pls come back and visit me. I am in the middle of moving everyone over so I will get there.

Just a quicky, I am on day 8 of stimms and struggling with sore ovaries not to mention dehydration. I go for a scan tomorrow to check how my follies are going so I will post and let you know. So don't forget my new blog!!