April 25, 2007

I had a Vent

I had a vent on a foum the other day that I thought I should put on my Blog, pls don’t take it personally. 

I am so over this shyte, I'm sick of getting my hopes up only to be shot down cycle after cycle after cycle. I hate the way I came so close only to be shot down and stomped on again. I hate the cost we have to encure every dam time, to have to save and save and go into more debt for something so precious that alot of people take for granted. My daughter should be 9 months old right now and I hate that she is not here.

I will be honest if we weren't blessed, infact not blessed because when you have your child taken away there is no such thing as blessed, but lucky enough to have the 17 embies on ice I think it would be over.
I hate the way people tell me it will happen and look at us cause we are proof because its my uterus letting us down not yours. I tell ya if there was stress leave for ivf most of us would be in line for it!!

Cycle number 9 in 3 months..........am I going to hate that too!!

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Anonymous Marcie said...

Shazz, I totally understand where you are coming from - the set backs we encounter whether medically, financially or emotionally just add to the trauma of this whole process, because it is something that we want sooo badly and it seems totally unattainable. Remember that I'm here for you and that our precious children are there just waiting in the wings for us.

April 25, 2007 9:02 am  
Anonymous Nicole said...

A great vent! Let it all out, I say.

April 25, 2007 11:50 am  
Anonymous Mary Ellen said...

I am so sorry for all that you are going through. Please know that I am thinking of you.

April 25, 2007 3:39 pm  
Anonymous Lut C. said...

What's not to hate! This sucks.

April 25, 2007 5:24 pm  
Anonymous Lisa said...

Hoping like crazy that one of those embies gives you the precious baby that you both so deserve.
Love ya lots xxxx

April 25, 2007 7:21 pm  
Anonymous Patience said...

Vent away my love - there's really not one thing about this whole freaking process that is something to look forward to; unless of course you are one of the chosen ones!!!

April 25, 2007 8:02 pm  
Anonymous griefrollercoaster said...

I hope this cycle is successful and your dreams come true.
Thinking of you - hugs.

April 25, 2007 8:28 pm  
Anonymous Sunny said...

It totally sucks. HUGS! VENT VENT AND VENT!

April 25, 2007 10:36 pm  

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