Does it Ever Stop!

Well as some of you might have noticed I have been MIA for the past couple of days.  I have been doing pee tests for Ovulation for over a week now and nothing.  My nurse has now resorted to blood tests, my first one showed something happening and my one on Thurs showed that my body is up shit creek without a paddle .  I think its called a P4 test but it shows that ovulation wise not much is happening but my progesterone is going high and after 2 doctors and my nurse looking at the results they cant explain it and said its very abnormal.  My RE is away at a conference and will be back Monday but his offsider ordered another BT for me Sat morning as she can't work it out.  So I rung Sat afternoon and the bloods had taken the long route to the path lab and wouldn’t be back, so I have to ring at 10.10 today see what’s happening to.  When my nurse rung me Fri she told me the results I asked her what’s the next step and she said cancellation!!   I have never had a cancelled cycle before which I think is what I'm in shock with..... Maybe I should of gone for the medicated cycle, as if this cycle is cancelled then it looks like its all off till next yr.DH bought me a bottle of wine Fri night,  I was that tierd from work, had only one glass he had to put me to bed and I lost it big time as we also had the discussion of home much longer we can afford to keep going.  We have my step kids around too and I think just watching them and listening to them talk to DH about when they were kids etc it bought me right done. Maybe reality is starting to kick in, maybe its time that we have to start thinking about it……STOPPING!  I'm tierd and now DH is wanting me to go see a Dr as thinks depression is starting to set in.  I just need to get through Christmas without my little girl and I'll be right I think this is where its all stemming from….well that’s my excuss.

 Update

I rung Melb IVF this morning and as soon as I said my name the nurse said 'oh I was only looking at your results first thing' , out of all the nurse working she had already read it and was trying to sort out what the hell is going on.  There's still no explanation but she did say that my progesterone wasn't majorly high  but was high enough to bring concern onto what was happening as there was still no serge for ovulation.  But she did say I could be one of those people who just have high progesterone level and cause I have never had blood tests for it before this will be the first time to be picked up and also as I didn't O until day 21 last time and it is only day 18 when my last bloods were taken.  So she wanted to ring my RE as he is back from conference and see what he had to say, he has ordered fresh bloods and a scan for first thing in the morning and will take it from there. So still no brighter on what's happening so tomorrow will bring yet more news and I think I know what that will be and I am coming to terms with it.